an answer to kent

i was thinking weder to post a comment or not.. but i beh tahan ad.. so.. i decided to post...in my blog....

a team is formed with 7 of us.. all of us has different skills.. we knew that since the 1st day of our forming. do u remember?.. yes.. we alwiz say jackson is our future star. but do we alwiz neglect ur existence? i dun think so lor.. even that night jack got champion.. the 1st person i msg is u.. cuz i feel dat this is a team thing.. we shuld celebrate 2gather AS A TEAM!~ i was there when he talk bout the belanja thing.. u are the one who said tat u din go den u are not invited.. den oni jackson joke about it... so.. dun take it wrongly..as wat elaine said.. how will he feel when he reads it?.. i feel like crying even u are not writing bout me.. u are like telling everyone in this world as if that MI goin to go down ad.. and yet it is a time when we are trying to reach the peak..

7 of us has different skills.. not all in dancing i can say.. altho we are a dance crew. mixing nice song is one of ur best talent. as for jolene.. she can do her gym skills. elaine and jack.. they are seriously born to dance.. therefore they are the main choreographer.. joshua and angku is more towards breaking.. and for me.. i normally do all the managing stuff... something that DOES NOT RELATED to dancing AT ALL!!~ but yet i am happy wif it.. cuz i know i am contributing.. wif something i am good in... are u happy when The Star wrote saying that MI has a wonderful song mixed?.. we have something in common.. we dance.. but.. do u think dat if 7 of us juz merely dancing.. this team still can continue mar?... honestly.. jackson is a very potential dancer.. but.. he is not good in other stuff... for example.. managing??... elaine.. as ppl said.. she is just interested in dancing.. and dun giv a damn towards other stuff.. do u agree wif me?.. i bet she knew that too...

mayb u are quite emo when u wrote that post.. but i am kinda shock when i read it.. my heart aching.. dat day at han xing.. i tot we are moving good.. i am so so so glad to see 7 of us performing together.. AS A TEAM...

never ever feel that ur team can do it without u.. and never ever think tat ur team needs u bcuz u can mix songs.. that is bullshit... if they are seriously like dat.. then i am the most NOT NEEDED person.. cuz my job everyone oso can do mar.. true? ... but i never think like dat.. for me.. i feel that i canot contribute much in thinking concept.. choreography and stuff.. therefore i put more effort in holding the team together and manage everything. from banking in money to sending emails and faxing details.. i am doing all this stuff and i nvr feel stress yet i am happy.. cuz AT LEAST i got sumthing to do... i am very used to sent message to all the members in MAX I.. sometimes some crappy messages.. but i am happy even if u guys replied in a swt way..

previously i felt how u feel.. seeing u guys joining encore.. and i cant be joining..go to see u guys practise and i feel that i am a nobody..but i prove myself wrong when i see u guys share the joy of getting the champion with me..; seeing u guys go for street tour but i cant... when ppl know Max I as a team of 5 without me..thats y i said i understand . cuz sometimes i feel that MAX I can be gud with just 5 of u guys.. without counting joshua cuz he is alwiz not around.. me being in a situation where i am a program master.. joining a great team.. but seriously i felt useless cuz i never have strong basics.. sometimes.. it is worse when coming to giving comment.. i nvr dare to giv alot of comment.. cuz i leave it to the pros.. nt feeling overshadowed.. but lack of confident... but.. is u guys tat alwiz tell me i can.. elaine everyday screw me for thinking so..u also everytime say i think too much. but why now this thing happen on u de??...

as for the REXONA comp.. i wanted all MI to go.. to see BOTH of u compete.. i tell ppl tat i am going to ZOUK tis wed to see kent and jackson and critical soul compete.. but u think me wrong.. i am seriously stunt when i see that...and seriously hurt.. i never tot that the 1st person who will be voicing out an issue like that wud be u.. for u used to tell me how u have faith and believe in MAX I altho we were formed in a team of 7, with 7 different skills and personalities.. remember how we 1st tot tat this team wont get to work out nicely??...since when that a member in a group trying to overshadow another member when we are performing as a body??... since when we started to think that we must be well known and get equal fame as others??...why are all this stupid issues coming up de??

i tot we are okie.. i never think before that any one of us will feel like dat.. but now i see serious matter. i see a crack between us already.. why?.. before even i leave.. MI no more??... battleground ler??. still joining??? i am so so enjoy when we have alot of performance.. altho vy bz and hectic.. but i enjoyed every practise time with u guys.. but i guess.. it only apply for me only..

For me.. everyone shuld be glad to just be in this team.. dancing for the sake of dancing and the feel of being together...it is sad tho to actually see how u guys feel.. same goes to u.. jolene...~~

mayb i am just too naif...