decision made~

sitting alone in the room.. but i am nt feeling bored or so.. duno why..
weird phenomenon.. lolx..
cuz normally i sure will kacau ppl and ask ppl teman me de..
but 2day.. sipet quiet la me..

waiting jackson to come "collect" his song.. waiting joseph to appear oso...~~

hmm..~ duno nih..2ml seems bz for me.. got test in the morning.. meeting derek to get my cons.. afternoon have to pass up one noob assignment.. and some stupid oral presentation.. and at night of cuz.. BOIZ and Jackson..~ they will be competing at ALOHA .. finals ad nih.. omg.. so gan jiong.. they sure will rox the dance floor de.. TT ppl not weak de.. dun play play.. lolx...

life's getting simple and free these days... i am used to it ad laa..~
altho i miss the bz bz and stress stress time...

AND!!~
most important of all.. i had made my ultimate decision.. its kinda hurt and sad..but its a decision i have to make...I WILL NOT JOIN BATTLEGROUND~~

did quite alot of thinking lately.. dancing is a hobby and a passion for me.. i knew it well that i wont be having a career or further my "studies" in the art of dancing.. as it is not actually my priority~~ for years.. i had been blindly putting it as my priority but i know it by heart.. it is not.. for certain reasons and facts that i wud not excel in dancing.. and will not go far... don't feel like mentioning why.. cuz its painful to me.. took years to accept the facts and i am not capable of doing moves and steps unless i wanted to risk my life..

the way i shuld have be going tru is actually music.. which i abandon quite sometime ago.. been considering to retake and learn everything about music over again...~ nt a bad idea tho..~
academic is wat i shuld be more concentrate on...~ if i fail.. there goes my future..~ i am very far behind already.. conpared to those who are at the same age wif me.. i wan to have a bright and "viewable" future.. and i noe dreamz will not come tru just like dat.. tats why i have to start working for it...

MAX I dears & darlings~
its hard and hurt for me to make this decision... i know i will regret..cuz this seems to be the last major competition i will be joining..WITH YOU GUYS..~but.. i have chosen my path.. i hope this will not make you guys have bad thoughts towards me..and by the time you guys finish your battleground, (i have full confidence in you guys that you guys will go far..^^) i will be graduating and leaving ad.. this is also one of the reason why i chose not to join..dun slap me.. but i figured that this is the best i can do.. i wud not like to make empty promises as i am not confirm that i can fulfill it. But, you guys always know that i will always be the 1st MAX I supporter.. even if one day.. ppl may ask about MAX I.. i will still feel proud...cuz i am once a member of it...dun ever think that any decision you guys come out with will hurt me.. it may hurt but i bet it will be the best decision for me and all of us.. cuz i have faith in u guys..~ so just go for it... as we all know that MAX I have high potential to achieve better in the dancing world~
i cant do much now as i am running out of time.. but i wan to see you guys work hard and put in effort.. if possible.. help me do my part also.. to contribute and make MAX I alive...~ i am free enuf these two days.. counting the dates is one of my favourite pass time recently... apart from battleground audition.. we have around 1 months left.. after that.. you guys will be so damn bz with it already... i duno weder i will even see you guys twice a week or a month.. like how leon used to be.. *we stay in one house* ~~ but no worries about me... i will be fine..i will still be here giving my fullest support~ (^0^)

its alwiz nice to pour out everything from the heart...~ altho tears shed.. memories flooded..~
it is better den keeping deep down...

^^... its time to study ad laa...
chiaoz...

*u may see me emo afew days.. but.. i will be fine...~ *