i have been thinking lately~

mother's day is around the corner..

ytrday nite.. i was thinking wat to giv as a gift for her.. ntg comes to my mind.~

i am 19 yrs old now. for 19 yrs, i duno wat is the best to giv her as a gift. well ya.. u'll mayb say dat i can try to be a gud gal.. but.. i noe myself well enuf.. as i noe i sumhow cant keep dat promise..

my mum.. she is sumtimes overprotective over me.. its acuali good... from wat they c.. but.. for hyperactive teen-age lik me.. its a suffering thing.. she tend to ask where am i goin.. interview all my frens.. investigate evrything.. she used to be lik dat b4 i moved out to study.. dat time. i was wondering dat when i can get my freedom... i used to hate her.. bcuz of tis.. arguements and quarrelling alwiz when we r both at home.. well ya.. i admit dat i hav a vy bad temper.. so does she,,^^..

its 1 yr now.. since i moved out from home.. things din get as well as i tot it wud.. the 1st and 2nd month of the living there was acuali fun.. the 1st time i get to go aniwhere without asking.. without getting permission.. i started to go for late night movies which i din try b4.. go 'yum cha'.. go internet cafe.. go lepak evrynight.. it seems fun.. dat moment.. i was thinking dat .. ya.. tis is wat i wan...

after a few months.. i started to fel bored.. sumtimes lonely.. i had wider scope of frens now.. but.. none of them can be compared to wat i get and wat frens i hav bac in the secondary sku.. ppl in big city tend to be more 'foxy'... cunning i shuld say.. i build up a sheild to protect myself to protect myself.. gosh.. how i miss my life bac then..

when i am alone.. i started to think of family.. my parent. tru out tis 19 yrs.. wat hav i acuali done..??.. other then hurting them.. i fel so bad... tears shed down whenever i came to tis..
i realise dat family is evrything for me...

i have evrything.. i have loads of 'refillable' love.. at least.. ^^
i am glad dat i still have time to correct my foolish mistake...
i am glad dat i still have time to treat them well...
i am glad dat i am born in this family...

thank god~...